Site Meter Reflections on Playboy: Oh, the siren song of politically motivated murder

June 2, 2009

Oh, the siren song of politically motivated murder

Photo credit: June 2008 Playmate and feminist social critic Juliette Fretté at Examiner.com.

“Right-to-lifers” never satisfactorily explain their reluctance to charge women who have abortions with first-degree murder, even though that’s the necessary conclusion to their premise. This leads me to support the pro-choice side of the debate. (More controversially, I support full reproductive choice for men, too.) But despite my political disagreement with the killer of abortion provider George Tiller, I can’t judge him too harshly for having a political reason to wish to kill someone. There but for the grace of God go I.

Even while I accept my mother’s hospitality for a few days out of every month, I fantasize about beating her to death with a baseball bat. An obsequious coward, she aided and abetted the authoritarian headfucking of my father at home and the numerous petty dictators at school. When I was eight, Stockholm syndrome led me to misidentify myself as a good little schoolboy. At puberty, this distorted self-image made me a worthless chickenshit. Now, in my late thirties, I constantly fear for my ability to take care of myself as a grownup. Every day, I’m tortured by a sense of personal inadequacy. It seems to be a matter of psychic survival to find someone else to blame for what the hell happened to me.

Naturally, I keep looking for a less drastic option than murder. If I run out of money before I can make therapy work, I might just have to blackmail Mom into filing a restraining order against me. Maybe I can regain my self-respect if I make my hatred of her a matter of public record. Since teenagers are the new niggers, I might just have to become the new Rosa Parks.

Posted by Brian Sorgatz at 2:05 PM

  • Anonymous Dave in Willits left this comment at June 3, 2009 12:29 AM  
    Damn, brother, you can WRITE!
  • Blogger Brian Sorgatz left this comment at June 3, 2009 7:26 AM  
    Thanks, Dave.
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