Site Meter Reflections on Playboy: Mailing my Netflixes for good luck

June 13, 2008

Mailing my Netflixes for good luck

Last night, I attended the third annual benefit party at the Playboy Mansion for the Marijuana Policy Project. A detailed account of the experience will take a few days. The words need time to brew.

After years of brutally mistreating it, I was finally kicked out of my apartment this week. In response to the crisis of having to move just when the party was scheduled, I’ve done my best to force a redefinition of my relationship to my mother—and, by implication, perhaps to the whole society I live in.

I publish this post from a rented computer on Hollywood Boulevard. Tomorrow morning, I’ll be logistically naked at Mom’s northern California doorstep. By my choices, I will have forced her to make a choice. If I’ve permanently alienated her, I could be on the street or in jail. But no matter what happens, I believe that in my helplessness lies a kind of victory. My vote of no confidence in the North American way of enculturation, with its stupidly authoritarian schools and inappropriate medicalization of controversial attitudes, will be harder to ignore than ever.

As a symbolic gesture of hope, I’ve mailed all six of my Netflix DVDs today, with the next six items in my queue headed for my mother’s house soon. It’s a sign of the chaos of my life that I didn’t watch three of the six. More embarrassingly, I got only halfway through the DVD of the old TV series Playboy’s Penthouse (nothing to do with Penthouse magazine, which didn’t exist then).

If you’re reading this, whoever you are, I love you and hope I can honor you by learning to live as happily as possible. May God bless us both.

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Posted by Brian Sorgatz at 5:13 PM

  • Blogger Robert Paulson left this comment at June 15, 2008 11:38 AM  
    No matter what your opinion of your mother, she will take you back. It's in their DNA.

    Good Luck.
  • Blogger SHANTRA left this comment at June 22, 2008 6:38 PM  
    So, Brian, are you at your mother's now? I am assuming so. Hope things are going well.
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